Simply put, meditation healed me
In every way imaginable.
When I was a teenager I developed a severe anxiety disorder and suffered from panic attacks, OCD, and unhelpful patterns of thinking. I was entirely alone, without support, and had no idea how to fix it or what action to take.
I had never known anyone with anxiety, or had heard of anyone recovering from it… so I went on anti-depressants at age 16 upon the advice of my doctor. My anxiety got worse.
I went to workshops, seminars, and support groups to try and understand this beast that I had living inside of me. I even chased down a highly regarded anxiety coach who was not taking on any new clients, and begged her to help me. Together we filled up a pile of notebooks analysing my thoughts and beliefs. My anxiety got worse.
I then spent all the money that I had on sessions with psychiatrists and psychologist who lectured me, laughed at me, and who suggested that I blame my upbringing for my hindrances.
My anxiety got worse.
Not only was I not getting better, my anxiety was spiralling out of control. Anxiety ruled my life.
Then, one day I dragged my butt to a meditation class and anxiously cried and trembled through it.
Then, that night I slept. The next week I went back again and I started to improve dramatically. Day by day as I practiced meditation, life got easier. Meditation built the foundations of my healing journey. Anxiety finally left my life.
Since then I’ve discovered Mindfulness, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, Self-Compassion, Inner-Child Healing, Forgiveness Work, Spiritual Therapy, Shadow Work, Voice Dialogue Technique, Emotional Freedom Techniques / Tapping, Gratitude, Mental Rehearsal, Affirmations, Self-Love and Positive Psychology. I’ve worked all of these modalities into the meditations that I have created.
I started recording ACT / mindfulness meditation tracks for my clients to practice in between sessions. I uploaded a few tracks to YouTube in 2010, so that I could direct my clients to the YouTube link rather than transferring large files between us. To my surprise, my meditations were popular!